omg it is an update!!!

Winter does not seem to be ending anytime soon and I still need an umbrella, but although the weather is pretty mundane (being cold and generally wet.. well at least not warm and wet), my life is actually pretty dramatic :|

So I am kinda seeing this guy and I don't know what he really wants from me; essentially I am taking chances that I don't really want to take. I really need to suss him out on this one and ugh I just don't know what to think about him because it's just mixed feelings all around. He isn't my type apart from the fact that he has dark blonde/light brown hair and blue-green eyes and is full of LOL. He is two years older than I am and he talks a lot, enough to border on FUCKING irritating, he wants to go to Japan for a year, is a good kisser, has a great physique. But he clubs, drinks, has done drugs, does not go to uni, lives in a shithole, gels his hair, does not have the best intentions -_-; Actually he is pretty hot, so I don't know what the fuck he is doing with me in the first place.

Meh, I really don't want to write much about this here so if anyone has any burning questions they can just ask me on msn ;p

I hate drama.

I also hate uni because I am a lazy bastard.

I feel like making a trip to Sydney for no real reason except to eat some sashimi and visit Mich. Food is actually better in Syd compared to here. But other than that, I love Melbourne woooot. I would hate having to go out to Avalon (this far ass airport) to take a cheapy flight though so maybe I will just settle for going around Melbs. I want to see fairy penguins.

Was out this evening to catch a footy match with Eliza, Dee and their footy friends. It was pretty awesome, although the opposing team sucked ass and I found it really hard to concentrate when the goals switched sides at the alternate quarters cause all the action is at the other side and I'm all mehhhh bored. It was also extremely cold. 4 layers of clothing and I was still freezing my fucking arse off.

I had to do my phone call report to my father as usual, and I am really sick of having to keep calling back to feed them with information of what I am doing... So I made the mistake of telling him I went to the footy, and he asked if there were white people there. Yes, father, there were. And then he went semi-apeshit and started going on about how I shouldn't mix around too much with them and how I should stick with my Singaporean friends and how I shouldn't go drinking and shit and go out after dark and forge too close friendships... Erm, fuck that. Don't give me friendship or relationship advice when your own friendships and relationships are in tatters. His ones certainly are. My father is pretty much totally racist against white Caucasians (it's really ridiculous) and is terrified that I will end up dating or marrying a white guy.

I think he would just burst a vessel if he finds out that I might just be somewhat seeing one ;)

Anyways, I think I will just tell him in every phone call from now on that I am at home all day and I've been studying all day but I took a break when I went to town to buy food. Alone. About how I always go to the city ALONE 'cause I am pathetic and have no friends and a total freaking nerd. And I have to hang up now cause I have to go to bed. Win.