I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.
-Sylvia Plath "The Bell Jar"
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
my life is like a soap opera... thing
Considering calling it quits with Travis.... I am bored and I need better entertainment than being frustrated with a boyfriend who does not give me what I want. Cause, you know, I am a princess.
Except, not. I really am not one of those idiotic girls who think they are a princess, but I believe I deserve to be treated as I'd like to be treated by someone who claims to like me, who gives to a relationship as much as I do. Treat me well and I will in turn treat you well, not like a trade, but with equal dynamics.
So what is the point of a boyfriend when he doesn't give you the boyfriendy things you like? NO POINT, RIGHT!? I can do with having no boyfriend, but when you have one, he better be good -_- Anyway. I have an alternative solution lined up here (ooh I feel like such a vixen.... I don't know why I get so much male attention here but ah well, gives me something to procrastinate about, ROFLMAO.) Let me tell you about this guy, Elliot...
HAHAHHAHA.
We went to a boardgames thing along with Eliza, and we made a kickass Pictionary team although Eliza and I were total n00bs to Pictionary. Totally OWNED everyone, man, it was fantastic. Get along with him better than I do with Travis- this makes me really wonder why I am with him.... I suppose I am just used to having him around for company :|
A part of me feels like I should be fair to Travis and sound him out on it, see if he wants to give it another go, but I doubt anything will change. Ehhhh. Dumping someone is actually difficult! Whaddaya know!
Except, not. I really am not one of those idiotic girls who think they are a princess, but I believe I deserve to be treated as I'd like to be treated by someone who claims to like me, who gives to a relationship as much as I do. Treat me well and I will in turn treat you well, not like a trade, but with equal dynamics.
So what is the point of a boyfriend when he doesn't give you the boyfriendy things you like? NO POINT, RIGHT!? I can do with having no boyfriend, but when you have one, he better be good -_- Anyway. I have an alternative solution lined up here (ooh I feel like such a vixen.... I don't know why I get so much male attention here but ah well, gives me something to procrastinate about, ROFLMAO.) Let me tell you about this guy, Elliot...
HAHAHHAHA.We went to a boardgames thing along with Eliza, and we made a kickass Pictionary team although Eliza and I were total n00bs to Pictionary. Totally OWNED everyone, man, it was fantastic. Get along with him better than I do with Travis- this makes me really wonder why I am with him.... I suppose I am just used to having him around for company :|
A part of me feels like I should be fair to Travis and sound him out on it, see if he wants to give it another go, but I doubt anything will change. Ehhhh. Dumping someone is actually difficult! Whaddaya know!
Friday, September 12, 2008
whoever says money can't buy happiness...
...does not know where to shop.
I've been doing HEAPS of shopping y'all. It's a bit ridiculous, but whatever makes me happy. Ha ha. I only have pictures for a few of the stuff, cause I'm lazy as. The point of this post is to do a bit of a mini-review of the things I have bought (and also to distract myself from doing USEFUL, PRODUCTIVE things).
№ 1: Jurlique- Rose Hand Cream
Smells divine. Erm, I think it's not heavy duty enough- I do a lot of cleaning around the flat, and my fingertips have gone wrinkly... Prior to use of this, my palms are actually peeling- all better now, but the pruny fingertips (and not from excessive soaking in water) remain after a week. I'll see how it goes, or maybe I'll buy something else.
№ 2: Lush- Angels on Bare Skin
Okay, I love this stuff, doesn't look too good- but it is.. I just bought more the other day. If I have to get rid of everything in my skincare routine and only get to keep one: this is it. I've been using it since I've tried it last September in Sydney, and even bought 700g back to SG when I left in Dec'07. 700g is HEAPS, the salesgirl was so surprised I asked for that amount, that she gave me lots of samples hahahahha. Since then, I've tried to deviate and use other brands of face washes, but I always come back- this smells SO GOOD, I can smell it FOREVER. It's really gentle. and cleans without making your skin all tight and gross.
№ 3: Neutrogena - Oil-Free Moisturizer for Sensitive Skin
Cheapy goody- I like. Fuss-free, does as it is supposed to. Minimalistic. 'Nuff said.
№ 4: Lush- Amandopondo Bubble Bar
A bubble bar! Run the bath, toss this little bar into the water and watch it foam up, hop in and Enjoy Your Bath! Ahhh it also smells divine, none of the overpowering nonsense... Rose Absolute, lemon and orange oil.... Mmm definitely melts the troubles and migraines away :D
№ 5: CLOTHES :D
Okay no pictures here or we will be here until the next millenium. Recently got ahold of my Victoria's Secrets haul, woohoo, loves it. Got three tops from Cotton On, two cardigans from MNG, dress from Dotti, Supre shirts and sweats, and even further back was that hot pink and white skirt from FCUK which I love to death.
№ 6: MAC!
END!
I've been doing HEAPS of shopping y'all. It's a bit ridiculous, but whatever makes me happy. Ha ha. I only have pictures for a few of the stuff, cause I'm lazy as. The point of this post is to do a bit of a mini-review of the things I have bought (and also to distract myself from doing USEFUL, PRODUCTIVE things).
№ 1: Jurlique- Rose Hand Cream
Smells divine. Erm, I think it's not heavy duty enough- I do a lot of cleaning around the flat, and my fingertips have gone wrinkly... Prior to use of this, my palms are actually peeling- all better now, but the pruny fingertips (and not from excessive soaking in water) remain after a week. I'll see how it goes, or maybe I'll buy something else.
№ 2: Lush- Angels on Bare Skin
Okay, I love this stuff, doesn't look too good- but it is.. I just bought more the other day. If I have to get rid of everything in my skincare routine and only get to keep one: this is it. I've been using it since I've tried it last September in Sydney, and even bought 700g back to SG when I left in Dec'07. 700g is HEAPS, the salesgirl was so surprised I asked for that amount, that she gave me lots of samples hahahahha. Since then, I've tried to deviate and use other brands of face washes, but I always come back- this smells SO GOOD, I can smell it FOREVER. It's really gentle. and cleans without making your skin all tight and gross.
№ 3: Neutrogena - Oil-Free Moisturizer for Sensitive Skin
Cheapy goody- I like. Fuss-free, does as it is supposed to. Minimalistic. 'Nuff said.
№ 4: Lush- Amandopondo Bubble Bar
A bubble bar! Run the bath, toss this little bar into the water and watch it foam up, hop in and Enjoy Your Bath! Ahhh it also smells divine, none of the overpowering nonsense... Rose Absolute, lemon and orange oil.... Mmm definitely melts the troubles and migraines away :D№ 5: CLOTHES :D
Okay no pictures here or we will be here until the next millenium. Recently got ahold of my Victoria's Secrets haul, woohoo, loves it. Got three tops from Cotton On, two cardigans from MNG, dress from Dotti, Supre shirts and sweats, and even further back was that hot pink and white skirt from FCUK which I love to death.
№ 6: MAC!
Right so I've been on the prowl for a red lipstick that does not make me look like a total clown or a child with mum's makeup- I go to MAC with the intention of buying ONE lipstick and end up with 4 of the above pictured products, lolz. The MAC addict is back, and it's not too good while I am here in AU because Australian retail is just SO NOT WORTH IT. I will do up a wishlist for when I get back to SG. So in the picture, l-r are Alta Moda p/l/l, Dubonnet l/s (which I am using in that picture), Creme Cerise l/s, Cherry Blossom l/g.
Me wearing Alta Moda... Yes I know I look tired in this picture... I AM/WAS and I was in day-old make up so.. Stfu.
Me wearing Alta Moda... Yes I know I look tired in this picture... I AM/WAS and I was in day-old make up so.. Stfu.
END!
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Weekend + my Monday + Tuesdays in a glance (or more)
Friday, I love you!
Went out to do my groceries after lectures on Friday in the city: I drop around 50 bucks each visit and go around twice a week. It's fucked and ironic that buying healthy food (wholemeal bread, chicken breast meat, ground lean beef, soy milk, the kind of cereal that isn't just sugared biscuits in disguise, lean chicken ham, veggies, fruits) is so expensive while chips are always on sale: a buck for a huge bag, or a giant bar of chocolate for that price, or soda, and shit.
Came home to put away the things and got asked out for coffee randomly by Tze, so we met up for the first time ever, and went to Lygon for some Koko Black and to Brunetti's. Full cream milk = no no for lactose intolerant me, because after I went home, I spent a fair bit of time barfing, lolz. Not pleasant, and killed my plans to hoover the flat and clean up before Sat because I just wanted to sit down and everything.
It seems that I might just be an alcoholic and having someone to drink with is feeding into that addiction. Everyone knows I hate losing control, but it is also one thing that I would like to do: which is to have a little fun- very conflicting, I know. Travis suggested going out at like... 9pm- so the Alcoholic in me jumped in to say yes before the Logical me could say NO I JUST WANT TO SLEEP. Got pretty tipsy, which was awful when it was wearing off, went to bed at ~ 5am? Fuuuuck.
Saturday
Lunch with T at some Thai place before I ran off to meet Eliza and he went home to pick up the Little Britain DVDs cause the idiot forgot to bring them for the Little Britain marathon planned for that evening. It was nice to have a break from him though, LOL. Shopped around with E, bought some Jurlique hand cream, which smells like a dream. Needed a richer hand cream since my hands are turning into some old lady webbed palms :| Got some tea from T2, which is this awesome gourmet tea shop that is just simply an orgasm in a form of a store. Love it to bits.
After buying some sushi for dinner, we headed back to my place before buggering off to Lygon to pick up some alcohol. T came back and got pizza, and the marathon began! Well, it was not much of a marathon cause we were all tired by ~12.30am and the Season 2 disc just went on too fucking long.
Sunday
E left for brekkie with her friend before T and I were up; eventually we went into the city for lunch at Singapore Chom Chom, but this time, the bak chor mee was substandard... Or maybe it just didn't taste good cause I was pissed off at him. He always manages to piss me off but he just got me good that day. He attempted to redeem himself by making dinner but urgh :| I was still pissed. Pretty good fried bee hoon coming from an angmoh, but don't tell him I said that cause his head will not fit through the door.
Monday
T left when I had to go for class; things were a bit better then because I did manage to get a rant in the previous night, but we do have different ideals and everything... So. Um. I don't know. Whatever, will take things as they come. Had an appt with a counsellor to talk about my feelings/shit. Hm. I won't elaborate on that, too fucking tiring.
Tuesday
Had uni. Met up with Denise from Week 0!!! Ahh I missed her, she's so funny hehehe. We had great Japanese at a place hidden away in Chinatown... It's so tiny and cozy and cute. I love it. We headed up to Brunswick St which is pretty hippie and everything- I prefer Chapel St though, there's a lot more to see. Had churros, which was fucking ace. A good day, but now I feel so goddamn fat. Was gonna tram up from the city after getting in from Brunswick but there was a fire at Myer! So there were fire engines and shit blocking the roads and the trams were not running... Fuck. Fatty fatty boom boom me decided to walk home and burn some calories.
And that's all folks. Don't say I didn't blog.
Went out to do my groceries after lectures on Friday in the city: I drop around 50 bucks each visit and go around twice a week. It's fucked and ironic that buying healthy food (wholemeal bread, chicken breast meat, ground lean beef, soy milk, the kind of cereal that isn't just sugared biscuits in disguise, lean chicken ham, veggies, fruits) is so expensive while chips are always on sale: a buck for a huge bag, or a giant bar of chocolate for that price, or soda, and shit.
Came home to put away the things and got asked out for coffee randomly by Tze, so we met up for the first time ever, and went to Lygon for some Koko Black and to Brunetti's. Full cream milk = no no for lactose intolerant me, because after I went home, I spent a fair bit of time barfing, lolz. Not pleasant, and killed my plans to hoover the flat and clean up before Sat because I just wanted to sit down and everything.
It seems that I might just be an alcoholic and having someone to drink with is feeding into that addiction. Everyone knows I hate losing control, but it is also one thing that I would like to do: which is to have a little fun- very conflicting, I know. Travis suggested going out at like... 9pm- so the Alcoholic in me jumped in to say yes before the Logical me could say NO I JUST WANT TO SLEEP. Got pretty tipsy, which was awful when it was wearing off, went to bed at ~ 5am? Fuuuuck.
Saturday
Lunch with T at some Thai place before I ran off to meet Eliza and he went home to pick up the Little Britain DVDs cause the idiot forgot to bring them for the Little Britain marathon planned for that evening. It was nice to have a break from him though, LOL. Shopped around with E, bought some Jurlique hand cream, which smells like a dream. Needed a richer hand cream since my hands are turning into some old lady webbed palms :| Got some tea from T2, which is this awesome gourmet tea shop that is just simply an orgasm in a form of a store. Love it to bits.
After buying some sushi for dinner, we headed back to my place before buggering off to Lygon to pick up some alcohol. T came back and got pizza, and the marathon began! Well, it was not much of a marathon cause we were all tired by ~12.30am and the Season 2 disc just went on too fucking long.
Sunday
E left for brekkie with her friend before T and I were up; eventually we went into the city for lunch at Singapore Chom Chom, but this time, the bak chor mee was substandard... Or maybe it just didn't taste good cause I was pissed off at him. He always manages to piss me off but he just got me good that day. He attempted to redeem himself by making dinner but urgh :| I was still pissed. Pretty good fried bee hoon coming from an angmoh, but don't tell him I said that cause his head will not fit through the door.
Monday
T left when I had to go for class; things were a bit better then because I did manage to get a rant in the previous night, but we do have different ideals and everything... So. Um. I don't know. Whatever, will take things as they come. Had an appt with a counsellor to talk about my feelings/shit. Hm. I won't elaborate on that, too fucking tiring.
Tuesday
Had uni. Met up with Denise from Week 0!!! Ahh I missed her, she's so funny hehehe. We had great Japanese at a place hidden away in Chinatown... It's so tiny and cozy and cute. I love it. We headed up to Brunswick St which is pretty hippie and everything- I prefer Chapel St though, there's a lot more to see. Had churros, which was fucking ace. A good day, but now I feel so goddamn fat. Was gonna tram up from the city after getting in from Brunswick but there was a fire at Myer! So there were fire engines and shit blocking the roads and the trams were not running... Fuck. Fatty fatty boom boom me decided to walk home and burn some calories.
And that's all folks. Don't say I didn't blog.
Friday, September 5, 2008
public service announcement
This evening I was on MSN with Travis about going out tonight-
me: if you get smashed like last time imma kick you to the kerb
travis: lol
travis: curb
travis: HAAAAAAAAA BITCH
travis: TAKE THAT CORRECTION
travis: HAAAAAA
me: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kerb_(road)
me: FUCK OFF
travis: ouf
travis: i just got shutdown
travis: in a major way
travis: kinda scared to leave the house now
travis: whimper
travis: dayum girl
TAKE THAT, stupid bastard lolz.
The moral of the story is that you do not mess with me with regards to speeeling errers and grammar 'cause I will pwnz j00 and your ass will be busted.
In other news, FUCK YESSSSSS WEEEKENDNNDNNDNDND.
me: if you get smashed like last time imma kick you to the kerb
travis: lol
travis: curb
travis: HAAAAAAAAA BITCH
travis: TAKE THAT CORRECTION
travis: HAAAAAA
me: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kerb_(road)
me: FUCK OFF
travis: ouf
travis: i just got shutdown
travis: in a major way
travis: kinda scared to leave the house now
travis: whimper
travis: dayum girl
TAKE THAT, stupid bastard lolz.
The moral of the story is that you do not mess with me with regards to speeeling errers and grammar 'cause I will pwnz j00 and your ass will be busted.
In other news, FUCK YESSSSSS WEEEKENDNNDNNDNDND.
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